Casey Abrams is still with American Idol top 11

The contest is getting tougher and tougher. This Thursday, American Idol top 11 result was the most dramatic and heartbreaking ever! Casey Abrams is a good singer. Steven Tyler did a good job, saving him!!

Justin Bieber in Manila 2011

I used to hear this song a lot since December 2010.."baby, baby, baby ohhh"
I didn't know who the singer was until I heard my 5 year old son, singing the chorus. Then later I found out that the singer is Justin Bieber. And he's coming here in Manila to have a 1 night concert at the SM mall of Asia concert grounds. 
I like his songs...and he's a cute kid! Too bad my daughter is not a fan of him, so I won't have any reason to buy concert tickets. 

Nicholas' 5th Birthday

The Tourist

My daughter and I loves Johnny Depp and Angelina Jolie. So we were so happy when we learned that they have a movie together. The other day, we watched "The Tourist" and we're not disappointed at all. It was a very good movie of Johnny Depp and Angelina.


I remember Angelina Jolie's movie before this one...Salt. That movie is unforgettable! I like Angelina doing action and stunts. She's really a very good actress for me.

After the holidays...

After the holidays had passed, and an unforgettable year just ended, I'm trying my best to be stronger for me and my kids this 2011. The year 2010 is really unforgettable for me. As look back, I can still remember the happy days of my family. My husband and I loved each other so much and people around us knew how we take care of our kids. We were considered happy and perfect family, everyone would envy. When my husband passed, my world crumbled on me. I didn't know how to live without him. I am not used to sleep and wake up without him on my side. We talked a lot. We respect and love each other.
My husband knows that I'm a strong woman...but even though, he didn't have to leave me.
I needed time to think and reflect on my life...and I'm thankful that I was able to spend Christmas with my kids, far from the city.
And now that the year has started, I'm ready....
Yes, I'm still hurting. I still feel sad and cry.

Then I'd stand up, dry my tears and move on with my life.
I know that my honey's up in the heaven. I know how much he loves me and our kids. I know that he's at peace.
I love you, my honey!

a Mother's job

It's really tough to raise 2 kids on your own. How would I explain to my 4-year old boy about death? His father passed away a month ago. And he kept on asking me when his dad is coming back. I would cry....yes...at night, when the kids are already sleeping. It's hard for me to live without my husband....I love him so much! We did a lot of things together....a lot of happy moments and pillow talk. And now that he's gone, I don't have nobody to talk to. And I feel this hatred, anger and sadness inside of me. Sometimes I even blame myself, for I wasn't there close to him "WHEN IT HAPPENED". I know that I need to fix a lot of things for my kids, so I have to be well for them. They need to be taken cared of and loved. I need to think well and feel well.

Living in Denial

Since my husband's death almost a month ago. I did a lot of things that I thought would heal my heart fast. I moved to my home country in 2 weeks time and started putting the kids back to school. I went to church to ease my burden, but I didn't feel like it was the right time to talk to Him. You would see me laugh, but as soon as I stopped laughing, I would feel really sad right away.
For 6 years that my husband and I has been together, we never had dull moments. We liked being together and doing things together all the time. Our friends can prove how we love each other. And now that he's gone, I am still in denial. Tears want to run down my eyes but I try not to cry anymore. And it hurts!!! It hurts not to cry. I'd still tell myself that this is a dream....a very bad dream!