What's next?

Since I was a teenager, I love reading books about astral projection, telepathy, the sixth sense, third eye and life after death. But what is the real truth about life's mystery? Does anybody really know? Do we really have control on what we want to happen to our future, or what we want to achieve?

I just lost a loved one recently. I lost my partner, my team mate, my soul mate, my lover, my best friend, my husband and father to my kids. I cannot describe the pain I'm feeling inside of me. I know that the pain I'm feeling is so much different from the pain that other people are feeling. Why? Because we share a lot of things together. We shared one dream, one love and we said words that only the two us will understand. We played, slept, dream, cook and eat together. We talked about things that other people may find weird. But we loved each other.....and I still do!!! How can you forget and not love a person who has so much love from him....so much love, that he even spent his last hours and minutes with me.

But what really happens to us after death? Do we still feel anything at all? Do we still know who we are? And do we still know our families and loved one?

The moment that I found my love on the physical level, I closed my eyes and tried to look for him in the spiritual level....I tried to find him and I know for sure, that I'm trying to pull him back to me. But that force is so powerful that I had to let go. I didn't have enough power to hold that....it's something like a force. Then, I saw him talking to a male figure, and my love was smiling. I didn't give up....I tried to call him a thousand times, but he wasn't around.